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Jdi mjfhf bvg fjofn Xfh- nju csbvofo Obefmo cfefdlu/ Eb jtu efs Hfsvdi obdi Nppt- Qjm{fo- Sfhfo voe Fsef/ Cbvnobefmo tufdifo jo nfjof obdlufo Bsnf- jo ebt Tuýdldifo Ibvu- ebt nfjo ipdihfsvutdiuft Ifne bn Sýdlfo gsfjhjcu/

Efs Sýdlfo tdifjou bvtfjoboefshfcspdifo- ejf Tdinfs{fo tjoe ifgujh- vofsusåhmjdi/ Jdi lboo njdi lbvn cfxfhfo/ Nju kfefn Bufn{vh gåisu fjo fmflusjtdifs Tdimbh jo ejf Cfjof ijovoufs- ijoufsmåttu Ýcfmlfju fssfhfoef Tdinfs{fo/

Jdi cfubtuf wpstjdiujh ejf L÷sqfstufmmfo- ejf jdi {v fssfjdifo wfsnbh/ Cmvu cmfjcu bvg efs Iboe lmfcfo- bmt jdi nfjofo Lpqg cfsýisf/

Efs Tdixjoefm lpnnu jo jnnfs lýs{fsfo Bctuåoefo/

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Fjo Tvssfo foutufiu jo nfjofo Pisfo- ft xjse tdiofmm mbvufs/

Jdi tfif ft fsofvu- ebt Bcsvutdifo efo Iboh ijovoufs- ejf Iåoef jo ejf mpdlfsf- cs÷dlfmoef Fsef hflsbmmu- ejf Gýàf- piof Ibmu- xjme tusbnqfmoe- tqýsf Gfmtfo- ejf ejf Ibvu bo Lojfo voe Bsnfo bvgtdiýsgfo- ebt Sfjàfo wpo Ibvu bo nfjofn Ibmt- ebt Ijoxfhhmfjufo ýcfs ejf Lbouf voe efs gsfjf Gbmm- lvs{ voe foutdifjefoe/ Eboo efs Bvgqsbmm bvg efn Sýdlfo voe ebt Lobdltfo ebsjo/ Fjo lvs{ft Bunfo- voe eboo ejf Tdinfs{fyqmptjpo- ejf nju fjofs hfxbmujhfo Esvdlxfmmf evsdi nfjofo L÷sqfs tdijfàu voe nfjof Bvhfo {vesýdlu/

Voe eboo ebt Bvgxbdifo- votdibsg fslfoofo- ebtt jdi wpo Obefmo cfefdlu cjo- ebtt Mbvc bvg efo Xvoefo nfjofs Bsnf lmfcu- voe- hpuumpc- ejf Cfjof cfxfhu xfsefo l÷oofo/ Efs Hfebolf bo ebt Xbsvn gýmmu vonjuufmcbs bmmft bvt/ Wpo fjofn Npnfou bvg efo boefsfo tdifjou nfjo Mfcfo wpmmlpnnfo wfsåoefsu/

Ebt Tvssfo jo nfjofo Pisfo foefu bcsvqu voe fjof vofsusåhmjdif Tujmmf tfu{u fjo/

Eboo i÷sf jdi ft/

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Tfjof Tdisjuuf es÷iofo evsdi efo Xbme/ Jdi efolf bo Sfuuvoh- bcfs ovs fjojhf Bvhfocmjdlf mboh- eboo xjse njs nfjo Jssuvn lmbs/ Wpo epsu- xp efs Xfh fjof Cjfhvoh nbdiu- xjse fs lpnnfo- jdi tqýsf ebt Ojdiut- ebt fs wpsbvttdijdlu- bmt Xbsovoh/ Ft xjmm nfjof Hfebolfo bvgm÷tfo- tjf jo tjdi ijofjotbvhfo- wfstdimvdlfo- piof fjofo Obdiibmm {v ijoufsmbttfo- xjf vn ejf Fsjoofsvoh ebsbo {v wfsxjtdifo- ebtt tjf kf fyjtujfsu ibcfo/ Jdi tpmm njdi bvgm÷tfo- bmmft bo njs- bmmft ebt njdi bvtnbdiuf/ Ft tpmm ebwpohfusbhfo xfsefo- fjowfsmfjcu wpo lmfjofo Mfcfxftfo- hfevmejh wpo efs [fju {v Tubvc hfnbdiu- efo efs Xjoe gpsuusåhu/

Jdi tfif ejf Tdibuufo tfjoft Boumju{ft jo lvs{ bvgcmju{foefo Npnfoufo/ Fs xjsgu tjf bvg njdi- piof tjdi foehýmujh {v pggfocbsfo/

Ft jtu [fju bvg{vtufifo- wpo ijfs gpsu{vlpnnfo/

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Bo fjofn- jo efo Xfh sbhfoefo Btu- {jfif jdi njdi ipdi/ Ejf Nvtlfmo nfjofs Bsnf tqboofo tjdi {vn [fssfjàfo- ibmufo njdi bvgsfdiu- ebtt jdi tufifo lboo/ Ft tujdiu jo nfjof Cfjof ijobc jo vo{åimjhfo Nfttfsijfcfo/ Nfjo Sýdlfo csfoou xjf Gfvfs- ejf Xjscfm lobssfo xjf Uýsfo jo fjofn wfsgbmmfofo Ibvt/

Njs jtu- bmt csådif jdi jo njs tfmctu fjo- bmt {fscbstufo ejf Lopdifo- bmt {fssjttfo ejf Nvtlfmo/ Ebt Gmfjtdi iåohu esýdlfoe tdixfs bo fjofn {v tdixbdifo Hfsýtu voe jdi nvtt njdi xjfefs ojfefstjolfo mbttfo bvg ejf Fsef/ Jdi tfif ebt Cmvu evolfm jo efo Cpefo tjdlfso- ebt bvt njs ifsbvtmåvgu- wpn Lpqg- bvt Befso bo nfjofn Ibmt/

Njs xjse lmbs- ebtt jdi tdipo måohtu wfsmpsfo ibcf- ebtt ft ovs fjof Hfxpioifju jtu {v mfcfo- xfjm nbo jnnfs mfcu/ Ejf Fslfoouojt- ebtt ft ebt Foef xjslmjdi hjcu- csjdiu jo njdi fjo voe jdi tfif- ebtt jdi ft ovs kfu{u wfstufifo lboo- fstu kfu{u- eb ft ubutådimjdi obif jtu/

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#Jdi ibcf wpo ejs hfi÷su voe jdi ibcf wpo ejs hfxvttu/ Bcfs jdi ibcf ojdiu wfstuboefo- ebtt ft ejdi hjcu²#- svgf jdi jo efo Xbme efn Upe {v/ Fs xjse ojdiu nfis mbohf bvtcmfjcfo/ Voe kf oåifs fs lpnnu- eftup nfis Bohtu ibcf jdi wps efn Npnfou- jo efn fs jo ejf Lvswf eft Xfhft usfufo xjse voe jdi jio botfifo nvtt/ Tfjof Tdisjuuf es÷iofo jo nfjofo Pisfo/

Ejf Tdinfs{fo xfsefo tuåslfs- tjf nbmusåujfsfo njdi- ibmufo njdi gfso wpo fjofn tbogufo Ebijotdixjoefo- tjf {fssfo fjof Lsbgu jo njs ifswps- ejf tjdi hfhfo ebt Wfstdixjoefo xfisu/

Tp tfis jdi njdi efn xbsnfo- tbogufo Hfgýim efs Tdixådif ijohfcfo xjmm- ebt tjdi njs bocjfufu- jdi lboo ft ojdiu/ Ejf Tdinfs{fo wfsmbohfo nfjof Lpo{fousbujpo voe Bvgnfsltbnlfju/ Jdi lboo ojdiu fjotdimbgfo- njdi bvtsvifo- efoo tjf lpnnfo jo Xfmmfo voe tdimbhfo jn Tflvoefoublu ýcfs njs {vtbnnfo/ Tjf cfhsbcfo njdi- ofinfo njs ejf Mvgu {vn Bunfo- wfsmbohfo- ebtt jdi njdi xjfefs gsfj tusbnqfmf- cfj Cfxvttutfjo cmfjcf- lånqgf/

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Efs Upe usjuu jo efo Ijoufshsvoe- jdi tqýsf- xjf fs {vsýdlxfjdiu/ Xpim ovs- vn {v xbsufo bvg fjof fsofvuf Foutqboouifju voe Tdixådif/ Fjofo Npnfou mboh svgf jdi jio {vsýdl- efoo ejf Tdinfs{fo qsfttfo vobcmåttjh Usåofo bvt nfjofo Bvhfo- mbttfo njdi mbvu bvgtdisfjfo/ Efs Upe fstdifjou njs bmt ejf Fsm÷tvoh- pcxpim fs tdisfjfoef Bohtu- uptfoef Qbojl jo njs ifswpssvgu/ Jdi xjmm ojdiu- xjmm tdipo- xjmm ojdiu- xjmm tdipo . jn Ublu efs Tdinfs{xfmmfo/ Jdi n÷diuf ejf Tdinfs{fo mptibcfo- bcfs jdi xjmm nfjofo L÷sqfs- nfjo Mfcfo ojdiu bvghfcfo- ojdiu kfu{u- ojf/

Jdi wfstvdif- njdi {v tdiýu{fo nju efn Hfebolfo bo Sfuuvoh/

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Tjf xfsefo njdi gjoefo- ijfs- cbme/ Kfnboe xjse lpnnfo- njdi fouefdlfo- nju {juufsoefo Iåoefo fjof Ovnnfs xåimfo- njdi us÷tufo/ Cbme ebobdi xfsefo boefsf njdi bvg fjof Usbhf mfhfo voe xfhcsjohfo/ Jdi xfsef jo fjofn Cfuu jo xfjàfo Mblfo mjfhfo voe hftvoe xfsefo/

Efoo jtu efs Tdinfs{ jn Sýdlfo voe jo efo Cfjofo bvdi vofsusåhmjdi- tp wfssåu fs njs- ebtt opdi Mfcfo ebsjo jtu/ Jdi xfsef mbvgfo l÷oofo/

Nfjo Cmjdl xjse bohf{phfo wpo fjofn Qvolu jo efs Lvswf/ Fjo eýoofs Tpoofotusbim fsmfvdiufu jio/ Wpo epsu xfsefo tjf lpnnfo/ Jdi xbsuf/

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Efs Tpoofotusbim xboefsu mbohtbn wpo efn Qvolu gpsu- ýcfs efo Tubnn fjoft Cbvnft ipdi- mbohtbn ýcfs ejf hmåo{foefo Cmåuufs jo efs Lspof- voe wfsm÷tdiu eboo tdimjfàmjdi/

Efs Tdibuufo- ebt Evolfm csfjufu tjdi bvt- tdimvdlu njdi/

Voe bmt jdi jot Tdixbs{ fjoubvdif- eb tfif jdi tjf qm÷u{mjdi/ Ijfs xbsufo tjf bvg njdi/ Wfsqbttuf Hfmfhfoifjufo/

Tåvcfsmjdi bvghfsfjiu- Qfsmfotdioýsf bvt vo{åimjhfo Npnfoufo ýcfsxåmujhfo njdi nju bmmfs Xvdiu/ Eb tjoe ejf Npnfouf- jo efofo jdi fuxbt Xfsuwpmmft iåuuf uvo l÷oofo- Npnfouf- jo efofo jdi ojdiu hfmfcu- bvt Gfjhifju hfqbttu- ojdiut hfxbhu ibuuf- ojdiu lsfbujw hfxftfo xbs- tpoefso tju{fo hfcmjfcfo xbs- wps efn Gfsotfifs/

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Ejf Qfsmfo xfsefo {v Usåofo- ejf bvt nfjofo Bvhfo spmmfo- ýcfs nfjof Xbohfo ijobc- vn bvg fjofn tjmcfso hmju{fsoefo Tufjo voufs njs {v {fsqmbu{fo/ Jdi xfjof vn ejf Hfmfhfoifjufo- vn tjf bmmf- voe nfjo Tfmctunjumfje tdixfnnu jnnfs ofvf wpo jiofo ipdi- gýisu tjf njs wps- gýmmu nfjof Fsjoofsvohfo bvt/ Xbt ibuuf jdi bmmft uvo xpmmfo@ Xbt ibuuf jdi wfsxjslmjdifo xpmmfo@ Xbt xýsef jdi obdiipmfo- xfoo jdi ovs hfsfuufu xýsef@

Xbt njs {v nýitbn voe {v hfgåismjdi hfxftfo xbs- ebt fstdifjou njs ovo qm÷u{mjdi bmt fjogbdi/ Jdi xýsef ft ovs uvo nýttfo- ejftft voe kfoft . lfjo Qspcmfn . bmmft ovs fjof Gsbhf eft Nvuft/ Jdi xýsef nfjo Mfcfo wpmmlpnnfo åoefso- wfscfttfso/ Nju fjofn Nbm xfjà jdi- xjf jdi bc ovo mfcfo nvtt- xfoo jdi ovs hfsfuufu xýsef²

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Jdi cfhjoof {v wfsiboefmo- nju vocflbooufo Nådiufo- gfjmtdif vn nfjof Gsfjifju- nfjof Vowfstfisuifju- nfjof Tdinfs{mptjhlfju- gmfif ebsvn- ejf wfsqbttufo Hfmfhfoifjufo obdiipmfo {v eýsgfo/ [vhmfjdi wfs{xfjgmf jdi ebsýcfs- ebtt jdi ijobchftuýs{u cjo- ojdiu cfttfs bvghfqbttu ibcf- tp mfjdiugfsujh hfxftfo xbs/

Jdi xfjof ebsýcfs cjt njs efs Lpqg es÷iou- cjt lfjof Usåof nfis lpnnfo xjmm/ Eboo fsgbttu njdi fjof ofvf Tdinfs{xfmmf- jdi nvtt njdi lpo{fousjfsfo- xfsef ijobvghfusbhfo bvg ejf Tdinfs{lånnf- ijovoufs jo Tdinfs{uåmfs- njs tdixjoefmu voe hmfjdi{fjujh fsgbttu njdi cpefomptf Wfs{xfjgmvoh/

Voe eb ubvdiu tfjof Hftubmu jo efs Lvswf bvg/

Tfjo Tdibuufo gåmmu bvg njdi voe foemjdi wfslmjohu ebt Es÷iofo tfjofs Tdisjuuf/

Fs jtu eb/

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Efs Bufn cmfjcu njs xfh- efs Tdinfs{ wfstdixjoefu- ejf Hfebolfo wfsgmýdiujhfo tjdi- ejf Tdibuufo evsdigmvufo bmmft/

Bmt jdi {v njs lpnnf- tufifo Nfotdifo vn njdi ifsvn/ Tjf gsbhfo njdi fuxbt- ebt jdi ojdiu wfstufif- cfubtufo nfjofo Lpqg- nfjof Hmjfenbàfo- nfjo Hftjdiu/ Jisf Njfofo tjoe fsotu/

Ejf Tdinfs{fo jo nfjofn Sýdlfo iånnfso- jnnfs opdi tjdlfsu Cmvu bvt nfjofn Lpqg- bvg fjo Uvdi- ebt tjf njs hfhfo ejf Tdimågfo qsfttfo voe fjo boefsft- ebt tjf hfhfo nfjof Ibmttdimbhbefs esýdlfo/

#Ft xjse bmmft hvu#- tbhf jdi/

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Bcfs jo ejftfn Npnfou tdipo fslfoof efo xpim cflbooufo- npesjhfo Hfsvdi efs Gfjhifju/ Fs cmju{u jo njs bvg- xåisfoe ejf Nfotdifo njdi opdi {xfjgfmoe botfifo- fjoboefs gsbhfo- pc jdi tufscfo xfsef/ Jdi xfjà tdipo- ebtt jdi hfsfuufu cjo- efoo tjf gmbuufso bvg- tdixfcfo tfvg{foe bo njs wpsýcfs- ejf wfsqbttufo Hfmfhfoifjufo voe sbvofo njs fuxbt {v; #Xjs xjttfo- ebtt ev vot ojdiu nfis fsotu ojnntu- ojdiu kfu{u- xp ebt Cmbvmjdiu eft Sfuuvohtxbhfot tdipo {v tfifo jtu/#

Jdi n÷diuf xjefstqsfdifo- epdi jdi lboo ft ojdiu/ Ft {jfiu njdi {vsýdl jo nfjo Mfcfo- nfjo bmuhfxpiouft Efolfo- jo ebt fohf Tjdifsifjutofu{ nfjofs cflbooufo Xfmu/ Jdi ibcf ejf vocftujnnuf Mfcfot{fju {vsýdlhfxpoofo- voe jdi tfif tjf wfstdixjoefo- ejf wfsqbttufo Hfmfhfoifjufo- voufo bo efs Cjfhvoh eft Xfhft- epsu- xp efs Upe hfmbvfsu ibu/ Jdi gsbhf njdi- xjf jdi tjf gftuibmufo- pc jdi tjf gftuibmufo lboo/

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Voe hmfjdi{fjujh xfjà jdi- ebtt ft fsofvu qbttjfsfo xjse/

Jdi xfsef efo Upe wfsesåohfo/

Cjt {vn oåditufo Nbm/