Erinnerungen an die HÖLLE

Lesedauer: 11 Minuten

Ein kleines Mädchen wird missbraucht, gefoltert, für satanistische Rituale abgerichtet. Seine Psyche spaltet sich in mehrere Persönlich- keiten - ein Selbstschutz. Erst die erwachsene Frau beginnt, ihre Angst in Bildern zu verarbeiten, sucht nach Beweisen und Tätern. Liz Wieskerstrauch drehte einen Film darüber. Hier erzählt sie die unglaubliche Geschichte von NICKI.

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Nickis Stiefvater wurde verurteilt - wegen sexuellen Missbrauchs. Aber was sie von dem Kult erzählte, hat man dem Kind damals nicht geglaubt.